cHenG&LieM’s fa|rytaLe

Dilemma Dilemma Dillema. I have this "nice" girl image that I feel I’m pressured to conform to and its just annoying. People say I’ve changed, I used to be a nice girl, yada yada.. and basically, now I’m not. Firstly, what is THEIR definition of nice? Does being nice simply involves smilling alot and speaking politely to people or does it actually involve something even more, i.e. always trying to please others, sacrificing my own interest and put everyone else’s first, letting other’s step all over me…etc etc? Maybe when I was nice and stupid, people are used to getting their way with me. So when I see through that and try to protect myself against other’s exploitation, I’m suddenly not "nice" anymore?

The funny thing is, even those that have never spoken to me before in their lives, claimed I am not "nice" anymore! Makes me wonder how they know me well enough to actually judge that?  As I mentioned in my friend’s blog recently, for all they know, I may be a super bitch way before anyone knew me, and have actually improved since. Still a bitch nonetheless Theres nothing we can do to those that love to parrot others.

Well, we cant change the fact that people like to gossip and bitch alot. All we can do is change our attitudes to accomodate other’s. And if people wish to focus so much energy on me or you, I think its pretty savvy that I’m the centre of their attention. hehe As long as we know what we are doing is right, there’s no need explaining to others. Does their opinion matter? Not to me, so why should it be to you?

To those that think I am not nice anymore, it is probably my intention not to be. I’ll only exert my energy to those I feel are worthy. Furthermore, nice girl don get far anyways keke. A lesson I should have learnt years back. To those I care about, I’ll never change the way I treat you.. I m still the naive, childish and idiotic lil girl the first time we met

And I will protect you with all my heart…

Sorry to dissapoint, but I have no intention to be "nice" anytime soon. So like I always say… DEAL WITH IT!

Full of love,
so very loved…..

Can someone please help me understand how human beings, mammals with emotions and conscience, can behave like cold blood monsters…

Yes, this is a dog eat dog world, everyone’s for themselves, yada yada yada…I understand all that… It’s always about the money, the profits, the benefits. But putting all that aside, doesnt one feel guilt when they go out all their way just for one’s means? Even if it means jeorpardising one’s future..?? Ruining innocent lives..???

I feel blessed that I do not have friends nor enemies like that……YET. Or maybe I have, I just don’t know it. Is money really that important that everything else can be forgotten? The friendship…the love…the memories…the good and bad times… the thick and thin… all seemed to be but a dream.. 

A dream that never happened…

If you are one of those people, I do not want to know you. Do not contaminate my life with your poison.  Remember always that Karma will be lurking in the corner, ready to pounce on you and rip ur heart out…(why do u need one when you don use it?) and when that happens.. I will be rejoicing with my strawberries and champagne.

Yes, some of you might say I’m childish as these are the ways of the world, sacrificing others for your own benefit, the very ingredient to succeed in the business world, but i refuse to conform to the norm. I know there is another way, a better way…AND IF THERE ISNT, I will strive to MAKE one. At least when i die, i know i wont be dining in HELL….

To a better future, to a better humanity.. *toast*

Till then….

Liem and I would like to take this opportunity to thank all those that attended our joint birthday costume party and for taking the time to pick out a costume and made it such a smashing party!!

Our theme was "Adults Only" OR "FairytaLe". Weird combination, I know! heheh But who cares!!! All in good fuN!

We had a good mixture of both….

FairtytaLe: the three musketeers, the seven dwarfs, LiL bo Peep, Alice in Wonderland with the Queen of Hearts, Alladin and Jasmine, LiL Red Riding Hood, Princess

Adults Only: Geisha, Racer Chick, Sexy Nurse, FarmGal, BunnyGal, Horney Ballerina, Moulin Rouge babe, Arnold swarzenegga, Ali G, Scar Face, Mexican Dude, Final Fantasy Dude, Two Horney Devils, Self Proclaim Robie Williams, AngeL..

Retarded Category: Queen of England in Hulla skirt…..ahhaahhah

We had soooo much fun we forgot to cut da cake!! =) But thanks guyz, for making it such a great party, and liem had so much fun =)) So good to see him grinning from ear to ear like a lil boy…and not to say I was so drunk that all I could do was just stand on one spot and stare….hahahahha We Love u guyz!!!! Muah

Liem & Cheng 2006

ALOHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It’s been SOoOOOoo Long since I last have access to the internet!! Using the snail dial-up at the moment…sigh…..patiently anticipating the return of my BROADBAND!!!! Surprisingly, having no internet before didn’t seem that bad afther all. Just like listening to music in the car. Me and my bf used to be addicted to 92.9!! woohOoo, but after i lost the face for my player for a whole 3 months in my room (u should know by now how cluttered my room is), everytime we were in the car, we will spend the time talking to each other, sharing our thoughts and dreams. We are so used to talking in the car that when I did find the face of my player, everytime we were in the car, we subconsciously turn the music down and start to chat with each other. Only once in a while we will remember that we have MUSIC now, and will turn it up. Otherwise…we just keep yaking and yaking, and trying to outbeat each other in rhyming!! ahahahah pathetic i know!

As i was saying about the internet, well, i sort off become less hooked on it now. Now if i have more spare time, I will try to catch up on my sleep or spend more time doing other more meaningful things. Good to know that things are still the same, little has change. With the exception of a few going demented and nutz, prob have too much free time on their hands, so getting a bit….obsessed. *shruggs* O well, just a waste of time anyways.

Been to the royal show but spent 3/4 of the time looking for show bags for the young uns. ehhehe gone a bit tapped myself, scurrying the whole ground for the hello kitty showbag! hhahhah it was soooo kewt, but din find it! What do u expect on the last day anyways…but yea…ate so much ribs my tummy was gonna burst….but note for next royal show, if I’m ever to go there again, never eat the ribs coz it sucks!!! Just that at that time, u were hanging on to those memories that they WERE great! bleh

O well…….gotta sign off now and go do some SHOPPING!!!

~cHenG & LieM~ 2006 #Hell Hath No Fury Like A Woman Scorned#

Sorry people, I know ure all probably annoyed by all these blogs..just delete it k =) But cos I couldnt put the comment on some one’s blog (perhaps banned haha) so can’t let it just go one sided can it hehehe. Just ignore it K! =)

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HeLooo Sussan self proclaim Heiress of PeRTH

Firstly, as a human being, i thought i ought to tell u that u should not put ur address on the internet to public. That’s pretty stupid. The whole of Perth will end up know where u live, and if u are as rich as u claim urself to be, u might be facing some criminal activities in ur house. If you just wanted us to see it, u can jolly well send it through a message. Gawd…Just telling u cos u know, i dun wan in the case u get break ins or whatsoever, ur narrow mind will think its us

And I can’t believe what I’m reading! Your whole erm..long essay on the vietnamese immigrants thing….u change pretty fast don you? Just because you found something on the internet to copy and paste to change what you said, which does not even relate to what we were talking about in the first place, shows how intellectual u are.

So just to entertain ur long effort of searching on da net to find another excuse to ur statements, if u say that u define viet immigrants as vegefarmer etc bla bla, so when u said that they ‘DESERVE to be looked down on‘ to me that night…so u mean the whole VIETNAMESE majority in PERTH DESERVE to be looked down on??? O DEAR….

AND, u said that ooo, "farmers are not poor, they pick strawberries for me, yummy…" all those CRAP, that’s not what u said to me. You said the complete OPPOSITE. You know how many people can prove that u din say that. How about u, where is ur proof? Changing ur story now is so expected from u. why, afraid if u said the truth of what u think, people would know what a shallow person u really are?? There’s no point arguing, cos i know all ur gonna do is LIE. DOn’t even have the guts to say whats on ur fickle mind. Pitiful

I can swear on my OWN life, that all I said in my blog, all my comments IS True. THink about it, if you hadnt said it, why would all of us be so mad at u? think rationally and logically. If there’s no wind, why would the leaves on the tree move?

And i think you need to see the doctor. i told u  before, you are dyslexic! You cant understand simple basic english and can’t speak english properly. How in the world did u get into UNI? Go check ur msg, or would you like me to show you mine. I SAVED ALL THAT U SENT ME AND ALL THAT IVE SENT TO YOU. I never agreed to ur so called "brotherly leader ship interpretation". You are the one who watch too many gangster movie, i define it as being a CULT and barbaric. Just for ur information, the leaders gf always DIE, if you watch young and dangerous..haha

But even if u define it as a brotherly way, which i don agree thats what u SEE it as, you are not in the place to say all those things. YOU ARE A NOBODY. Got that in ur head yet? You are not in a place to say anything. Everything you have said about ur boyfriend is making it worse for him. (and i found out the msg that u passed on for him are LIES, you made it up urself, why, wanna hold on to ur 30 seconds of FAME?)

So GROW A BRAIN, and SHUT UR TRAP, cos sooner or later, u are going to make urself so hated that people’s gonna spit on the floor that u walk on.

And in your blog.."HE WILL ALWAYS BE THE IDOL OF MAJORITY" or something like that..gave me goosebumps. eeeh, I won’t even write that in pubic even if i EVER think that is true about my bf (of course, i don think that cos my bf see all his friends as equal to him, equal respect, equal loyalty)..Look at how proud you are to go out with him. Too bad, his "popularity" din transfer to u, oh actually, it did, it made a pretty hated person because of ur own stupidity.

I won’t comment on all the other things uve directed to the rest of the gals. Im sure they will have alot of things to say to u later. I feel I’ve wrote an essay for an exam! but as for you saying that diana’s spreading rumours without any justification? I’m sorry, we have PROOF. every single thing that she said, WE HAVE PROOF. u got it? we’re not dumb. Ask the rest of the pop of Perth. Im sure half has seen it already. Too bad u decided to post in on such an easily accessible website where people can easily see it. Do u actually get paid for that? ANd we know all the conflict uve had with ur beloved for doing those "indecent" things.

You think Ive never heard rumours about u? Don’t make me start. You’re just a little parrot who craves gossips just so that u can repeat it and seem more COOL! i guess ur trap is only capable of releasing crap, which is pretty laughable.

Pls don make urself seem dumber than u already are..its quite pitiful but rather entertaining really..hehe

I have a dilemma. Me and my boyfriend are constantly harressed by a certain individual known as Air-Ress of Perth. (How the hell can people write like that?? Perhaps I’m a bit slow…..) Don’t know whether if she qualifies as the heiress or not, but if she insists she is, well, no point arguing, waste of time. Well, she keep sending us rude messages and so..I talked to her. In our conversation, we debated about a certain issue. This issue needs to be clarified and needs the help of the Perth population, cos we cant seem to get to a conclusion

Ok…Heiress here claims that all farmers should, or as she put it..DESERVE to be looked down upon. (It all started because she called my friends "vegefarmers" as an insult - i put hyphens because I honestly don see them as that nor have anything against farmers) She said that that’s the way she feel. She feel that why do farmers have to work on farms. Why don’t they just go to uni and try to take up science and invent some technologies where they can press a button and people can get a lettuce from the computer. AND I MEAN LITERALLY OUT FROM THE COMPUTER. (can you imagine a uni student saying things like this??) Well, i guess someone’s living in LALALAND. Of course that is ideally the thing for us, BUT in reality, that is hardly even possible. If that is your reason for looking down on vege farmers, then why not u look down on all the scientists before? WHY ARE THEY SOOOOO DUMB THEY CANT INVENT SUCH A COMPUTER…so i can ebay myself a brocolli???? come on ppl….lets look down on ALL the stupid scientist! You didnt do enough for all of us!!!!

Sigh…….why a person who claim to be Heiress and superior to all of those she "THINKS" are lower that her.. if she’s as educated as she claims to be…how can she even utter such nonsense?!!

We are living in a world where technology is not as advance as the heiress hope to be. There’s no point wondering why technology can’t be more advance and blame it on the farmers who work their ass off day in day out in the sun to put vege’s in supermarkets for "rich" people to eat? Why not live in the present, and show some compassion and some gratitude for what they have done for us so that we do not have to be in the sun planting our own vegies. Every occupation has its importance, its a cycle that keeps the world moving. It’s only immature people like Heiress who thinks that she is all mighty, thinks that she has the right to look down on others. Little did she know that she is the uneducated one who doesn’t understand the facts of life, only she who is so shallow who will put judgements on others just because they chose a certain profession that she deems "LOW CLASS". Little did she know that she is the one without class…she is the uneducated…and she is the one not worthy of any of the vegefarmer’s time.

There is no point looking down on others just to feed your insecurities and make yourself seem more superior. To me, its a cowardly act.

Well, as you can all see, I feel strongly against Heiress’s philosophy. I don’t think that anyone has the right to look down on anyone, regardless whether you THINK you are richer or not, especially only based on that insignificant factor. I can’t be bothered debating like kids with her, such childish thinking is hardly imaginable in a person. But if anyone agrees with her, i respect your decision and have nothing to say. You are entitled to your own oppinion. But don’t force your oppinion on others and make them feel inferior in any way, cos they most definitely are NOT. So if you people who are reading is free, and would like to speak on the matter, feel free to add a comment or send me a message. I am sick of argueing with heiress, and just want it to stop.

U said you are an EDUCATED student, but u don even know what interogate means and you use the word. However, the irony is, my "vegefarmer" friends KNOW what that means. soooo….are u that confident that you are more educated than them?

I know that there are people out there who has encountered or has feel the wrath of the heiress. Don’t feel inferior because of how she make u feel? Have u realised that she use alot of big words, but she don’t actually know what it means nor make any sense? It has taken too long for people to actually tell her in the face that people out there have worth, and i like a phrase in someones blog, from whores to junkies, they all have a certain strength in them that others dont. Everyone have something to offer and have something that they are good at. I know that most would just let it slide, I let is slide too before. Its not just today that she’s been acting like this. However, I think that this time, she has gone too far.. I’m sorry if I offend anyone, but this is the only way to let her know how wrong she is….and stop picking on people just because they don retaliate!

Isnt it funny, how people can be so shallow that at times when it’s suppose to be the most saddest and heartbreaking times of their life, all they can think about is the benefits that they got out of the situation? And knowing that the reason to broadcast it to the world is just to show off what they have? Do they actually think that other people are so DUMB that they can’t see through those antics? It is simply disgusting how low people can stoop to. Of course, it’s none of my business. They can do whatever they want to make a joke out of themselves. However, if matters are left to rest and some idiotic fake wanabe people choose to bring it up again, it’s a different matter altogether. They can say whatever they want, do whatever they do, but do not use cheap tactics to have a go at my friends, thinking they are more superior than them. Even till now, trying to be cocky to hopefully gain some of your dignity back will not work.

For your information, you have already lost your "DIGNITY" a long time ago. Not by others, but by yourself with your own hands. If you are as clever and superior as what you claim yourself to be, then your "clever brain" would have told you not to do those shameful things. The whole world knows… You think that by being ignorant and pretending that it never happened, it will go away? Think about what I’m saying before doing anything stupid. Perhaps you should pick up cross knitting and pottery? I think it suits your intellect better..

Even till now, people never learn.

Got this from the Bulletin…seems cute…so yea..

What a girl wants but most guys wont give…is it true? Maybe..

KISS HER IN FR0NT 0F Y0UR FRIENDS. - YAP…despite the friend’s complaints!!! ahhahahha

TRUST HER 0VER EVERY0NE ELSE. - Nah man, always ask me to swear on my #### - dodgy person ehhhe that’s our new craze..hate it BUT.

TELL HER SHE L00KS BEAUTIFUL. - erm………erm……..he tells me that im the MOST BEAUTIFUl…..only in his eyes.. ahaha

L00K HER IN THE EYE WHEN Y0U TALK T0 HER. - Most of the time….kekekek He has ADD, hard to concentrate…like all guyz

TELL HER STUPID J0KES T0 MAKE HER LAUGH. - ALL THE TIME!!! he has the lamest jokes and pick up lines.

LET HER MESS WITH Y0UR HAIR. - YUP, he hates it when I keep curling his hair behind his ears, but he still lets me…

MESS WITH HER HAIR. - YAP, whenever i try to curl his hair, he’ll ruffle my hair till its all messy

JUST WALK AR0UND WITH HER. - Yap..we used to take long walks in parks during our free time but now we are two lazy fat bums.

INCLUDE HER IN ALL THINGS Y0U D0. - HEHEHEH we are together 24/7…..stuck together ahhahah

WHEN SHE CRYS D0 WHATEVER IT TAKES T0 MAKE HER SMIlE. - Yea….coz he always laugh at me when I cry coz he say I look like a suki bum

F0RGIVE HER F0R HER MISTAKES. - Yea, all the time, he spoil me too much and I love it!!!

L00K AT HER LIKES SHE’S THE 0NLY GIRL Y0U SEE. - He has the most intense eyes Ive ever seen..

TICKLE HER EVEN WHEN SHE SAYS ST0P. - HELL NO, I’ll box the shit out of him ahhaha hate it when ppl tickle me and dont stop!

H0LD HER HAND EVEN WHEN Y0U ARE AROUND Y0UR FRIENDS. - All the time…especially when he toks to other gals… =)

WHEN SHE STARTS SWEARING AT Y0U TELL HER Y0U L0VE HER. - Erm, Not really, he doesnt like me swearing, especially when it’s at him!

LET HER FALL ASLEEP IN Y0UR ARMS. - All the time, everytime I have insomnia, I can sleep so easily with his arms around me..

GET HER MAD, THEN KISS HER. - hehehe sometimes, if we don’t end up wrestling with each other.

TEASE HER & LET HER TEASE Y0U BACK. - We tease each other almost everyday!!

STAY UP WITH HER ALL NIGHT WHEN SHES SICK. - Hrm…..the last time I was sick….HE LET ME DIE….hahahah nah la, he did look after me, but not when he was sleeping…NOBODY can interfere with his sleeping… ahhaaha

WATCH HER FAV0RITE M0VIE. - Yea, he does…he love watching movies, any movies

KISS HER F0REHEAD. - Yapz..ehehe make me feel like his lil’ gal..

GIVE HER THE W0RLD. - He gave me everything that I ever hope for, things that even money can’t buy..things that matter most

WRITE HER LETTERS. - He can write the most touching and romantic letters =)

LET HER WEAR Y0UR CL0THES. - Hehhe I always steal his sweaters

WHEN SHES SAD, HANG 0UT WITH HER - He’s always there for me when I’m sad

LET HER KN0W SHE’S IMP0RTANT. - He lets me know that everyday..

LET HER TAKE ALL THE PH0T0S 0F YOU SHE WANTS -HAHHAHAHHA yes he does, even when he complains!

KISS HER IN THE RAIN. - Nope, won’t be caught in the rain, will fall sick!

CALL HER EVERY NIGHT. - Every night we are apart…

AND WHEN Y0U FALL IN L0VE WITH HER, TELL HER. L0VE HER LIKE Y0U NEVER L0VED BEFORE - Yea he did…and so did I =)

Certain events that should be left unexplained. However, word of mouth is already spreading like wildfire. Which is the truth? Which is the exagerated? I guess, all would never know unless they were the ones involved. And always, it’s the word-of mouth that makes the situation deteriorate even worser. Indeed, it was a chain reaction of events, once triggerred, would never stop. It could be resolved so much earlier, why didn’t it? Who is to be blamed? Fingers pointed at everyone, accusing who-who was at fault. But does it change the fact of the matter? Is that still the point? The damage done was inexcusable, why did it have to lead to that? What is to come after? Alot of anger that needs to be curbed…but how? And eye for an eye….? Is that still enough? Or is there another way…?

Wondering where the future lies..where it would lead us all.

P.S. Greatest gratitude to those innocents who were involved. Never know how your kindness can be repaid, but know that we will always be there for you, as you have.

[And to whom it may concern, don't take people for a fool and say that you wanted to forget everything and leave it as it is just for your own convenience. Where in truth, it is the complete opposite. If you genuinely had wanted to stop everything, you won't have asked to pass the message on intentionally. You told him that you wanted to leave it, why start it again? Don't take him for a fool, for he gave you his heart and trust after all that has happened, and you stabbed him in the heart again. You chose him cause you know that he would still go to you, but enough is enough. If what you said was true last sunday, you just want to forget about everything, those words won't have came out from your mouth yesterday. ]

And you know what the funny thing is? All this while, I still hope that things won’t go worse for you. The ironic thing is, you werent even sincere in the first place.

A rather depressing title isn’t it? Let me just start with what led me to that statement.

I think it happened a few years back, when I was at a nightclub, and I opened the toilet door for a few Aussie ladies. They smiled and commented about how nice i was to do that. I grinned back and told them, of course i was nice! But then, they added, ‘It’s good that you are nice, but remember, in life, being a bitch will take u further’. At that time, i never gave much thought to that comment… in fact, I thought they were ridiculous. I mean, I’m sure most of us, since young, were taught to be polite to people, respect elders, do good deeds and so forth. Our values are constantly hammered into us to ensure that we are brought up the right way, with doing the right thing. But today, what IS the ‘right’ thing?? Is the right thing STILL the ‘right’ thing?

I don’t mean to say that I wanna be a bitch so that I can go further in life and achieve more. But have you ever thought, what if you were nice to every single person, and you just get pushed over and taken advantage of, that in the end, you are the one left out in the rat race? Probably because I was brought up in a little city, where everyone was very helpful and decent to each other, well, most of them.. hehehe but most of the people that I was brought up with were very nice people, especially my childhood friends. Even now, I still want to think that the world is still filled with much love. But reality is here to bite me in the ASS! hehehe As they say, its a dog eat dog world. Friends may not really be friends, where enemies may be standing right next to you holding your hands. Not that I’m sulking or anything, but I’m finally realizing. It’s a whole new strategy out there.

But accepting is a hard step, changing the mentally norm that you were taught is even harder. Right now, I’m thinking, when someone do you wrong, should you react in kind? But if you do, won’t you be lowering yourself to their standards to spite them? Then what difference are you with them? Then what right do you have to complain and say they were wrong? That’s the thing I’m most curious about. Should we neglect the values that we hold so dearly just to get back at them, or get an advantage? Seriously speaking, I don’t think I can. I agree that being a bitch will probably get you further, but if it involves betraying your conscience, going against your values or any of the sort, I don’t think that getting that extra mile is worth it. Will we be able to sleep at night knowing that we have caused someone such grief?

My mum use to tell me, whether or not people treat you bad, as long as you don’t do anybody any harm, thats all that matters. Even those beggers on the streets, alot of people say that don’t give them any money cause they are probably just pretending…..but what if they are not? what if they are really handicapped or poor? Don’t you rather just leave it to chance..if they are really pretending, then BUGGER! But if not, you are really helping someone in need. Why worry whether they are pretending or not?

But of course, if being a bit of a bitch can prevent people from taking advantage of you and protect yourself, i reckon, by all means, sign up for the next bitch course!

P.S. I’m not saying that I’m not a bitch, probably some people think I am, but I would like to think that i TRY not to be one..and do what I feel is right. =)