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Sigh….I just had a very bad dream last night. Probably ate too many fries…hehehe. Anyways, eventhough the dream was pretty sad and depressing, it made me realised something.

In my dream, me, my boyfriend and a few of my childhood friends were in school together. Heheh prob my subconscious trying to recapture my youth!! Depressing, depressing. But out of the blue, my boyfriend and his group of friends ran out from the classroom and dissapeared somewhere. My first thought was, THOSE MOLES MUST BE UP TO SOMETHING BAD!!!! I was all shitty and worried that something might happen to them. I tried asking my friends but they either didnt want to tell me or they didn’t know. Finally, one of my friend’s told me that earlier that day, my bf and his friend’s went to another school, and now, the students from those school did something to my bf’s house! I was really really very very very worried…..and I HAVE NO IDEA WHY, but it suddenly hit me. I really wanted to see him sooo much, and out of no where, a movie scene suddenly poped into my mind. (HAHAHA yes, i was still dreaming, retarded isnt it)

Have you ever watched one of Aaron Kwok’s movie where he ride motorbikes and die in the end? I’m sure you all have. And honestly, i hate movies like that, no happy ending! Bleh!!! All the while when that idiot was trying to drive the motorbike after being beaten up AND knocked down by a car, I was screaming, "Get to a bloody doctor IDIOT, then go see the gal!!". I mean, his reason was that he didn’t want the girl to wait for him any longer. However, the dream gave me a different perspective. The dream made me understand why he didn’t want to see a doctor, tend to hhis wounds, THEN lastly see the gal. My rationale before was, after u are well, you have lots of time to c her, right? But now, I think that he didn’t do that because he felt that if he didn’t see her now, he would never see her again. Perhaps if he had went to the hospital, he might die and never have the chance to..

In my dream, I was feeling the same thing. Please don’t let anything happen to him, and pls let me see him again…

I don’t know how to explain to you, or perhaps you won’t see any connection with the dream and my conclusion of thoughts, maybe its the emotions that were going through me, and I find it hard to translate those to words. HEHEHHE But the main point is…………I know why that idiot aaron kwok didn’t go to a doctor and just died in the end. hahhhahha Until this morning, I hated that movie cause it had a shitty ending, but now, I have a more optimistic view =)

Sigh…Currently, I’m going through a detox-ing period. Nope, not from alcohol, drugs, or any of the sort. I am going through a detoxification of my language.. BLEH~~ All Lyndsay’s fault. Before I knew her, I was a little goody two shoes who hardly utters a single profanity.. and now.. my vocabulary is filled with an extensive range of foul words… sigh..Who would have thought I’d pick it up so easily and so quickly. AND i blame it all on her!!! She makes swearing seem so normal and acceptable…ehhehehehe Nah, I know it’s all my fault.. Like what Liem said, he too, is surrounded by people who swears alot, but that doesnt mean that we have to follow suit. Sigh, its tough since it has become a bad habit, but no worries, i don think its permanant. It should be alright! =) Especially after I told Lyndsay that I’ll punch her every time she swears in front of me!! KEKEKEKEKE Don worry galfriend, I still like you…..it’s just Liem that doesnt….HAHAHAHAHHA j/k =) At least i think I can help you to stop swearing too!!!!!!

UPDATE: 49 hours without swearing…..WOOO HoooOOOOooOO For u, I will… =)