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Dilemma Dilemma Dillema. I have this "nice" girl image that I feel I’m pressured to conform to and its just annoying. People say I’ve changed, I used to be a nice girl, yada yada.. and basically, now I’m not. Firstly, what is THEIR definition of nice? Does being nice simply involves smilling alot and speaking politely to people or does it actually involve something even more, i.e. always trying to please others, sacrificing my own interest and put everyone else’s first, letting other’s step all over me…etc etc? Maybe when I was nice and stupid, people are used to getting their way with me. So when I see through that and try to protect myself against other’s exploitation, I’m suddenly not "nice" anymore?

The funny thing is, even those that have never spoken to me before in their lives, claimed I am not "nice" anymore! Makes me wonder how they know me well enough to actually judge that?  As I mentioned in my friend’s blog recently, for all they know, I may be a super bitch way before anyone knew me, and have actually improved since. Still a bitch nonetheless Theres nothing we can do to those that love to parrot others.

Well, we cant change the fact that people like to gossip and bitch alot. All we can do is change our attitudes to accomodate other’s. And if people wish to focus so much energy on me or you, I think its pretty savvy that I’m the centre of their attention. hehe As long as we know what we are doing is right, there’s no need explaining to others. Does their opinion matter? Not to me, so why should it be to you?

To those that think I am not nice anymore, it is probably my intention not to be. I’ll only exert my energy to those I feel are worthy. Furthermore, nice girl don get far anyways keke. A lesson I should have learnt years back. To those I care about, I’ll never change the way I treat you.. I m still the naive, childish and idiotic lil girl the first time we met

And I will protect you with all my heart…

Sorry to dissapoint, but I have no intention to be "nice" anytime soon. So like I always say… DEAL WITH IT!

Full of love,
so very loved…..

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